擁抱.....夢想

Guitar by KSF
Vocal by ME (對不起, 歌詞有唱錯 -_-")
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阿信說的對:

就放肆愛 放肆追 放肆去闖 放肆的大鬧一場
不能原諒 如果很多年後 我還是這樣
就放肆愛 放肆追 放肆去闖 放肆是我的信仰
再不去闖 夢想永遠只會是 一個夢想

朋友們, 有夢想就去追吧. 不要只是說說而已, 到頭來還在原地踏步!
千萬不要自己成為自己的絆腳石, 一定要把心里面的恐懼都丟掉,
勇敢的去擁抱你的夢想吧!

Cheers to a better future!

Project Runway tonight!

Just like what Fen said, my 3 days seem like 3 weeks, 3 months or even more. These 3 days seem like the longest 3 days i've ever had. Everyday went home like I've been to a war, that tiring...Another 2 more days to weekend, so looking forward to it. I'm so deprived of music at work. Darn!

Fanny, heard that you are sick. Do take care of yourself & rest more.
Get well soon ok! *Hugz*

Fang, quick write this down (I learned it from FM933) :

はやくげんきになるよに　＝Hayaku genki ni naruyo ni = Get well soon

自彈自唱作詞作曲

.再見.初戀.

是誰說一起到老不變心
是誰先退出這段感情
最後只留下我和你美麗的回億
我不怪你 是我不懂珍惜

只要你能夠好好的過
我也願意默默的忍受
對你的思念都只好藏在心中
放開手還你自由
Because I love you so.....
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我的聲音,我覺得很噁心..... *吐*

(Key 太低, 聲音噁心! 最近,我真的很煩!!!!!!!!)

會有那麼一天.....

Thank you Mr. Chou!

Peishan, I do miss you

Pleasant personality
Proficient work attitude
Perfect team spirit
Pretty and touching birthday cards
Precious
Priceless treasures, ALL
Please keep in contact

Penned by John Chou

To: Shufen

I know you can overcome your emotions,
overcome your situation,
Yotsuba believes in you too!
You can do it, believe in yourself!
Blame our luck, but don't blame ourselves!
The best has yet to arrive!
Nothing beats being alive!

那本書教我的事.....

感覺很重要, 但是, 是非對錯更重要. 若是我們一味地跟著感覺走, 不用多久,你就會發現, 許多看似很'爽'的東西, 不僅不正確, 而且感覺也不好. 所謂正不正確, 簡單來講, 就是指後果好還是不好. 甚麼樣的人會經常做出感覺好卻不正確的事? 就是那些不考慮後果的人. 事情的結果比短暫的感覺更重要.
因為, 事情的結果不是我們可以控制的, 但是感覺這種東西, 確是自己可以調整的.

喜歡是一種感覺, 傷心也是一種感覺, 失望, 被背叛, 被拒絕.....都只是一種感覺. 而我現在要做的, 就是勝過自己的感覺.







p/s: Thank you, Fanny, for that day :)

I need to understand myself

There's a constant fear in my heart...I don't know what am I afraid of?

I'm scared to know that I don't know what I'm scared of.

It's my birthday!

19th March 2009 - Thursday

Today is my birthday. But it felt like an ordinary day. And this is the 1st time in my 28 years of life that I'm spending my birthday alone. I bought myself a cake & make 3 wishes. I don't wish to be alone on my birthday anymore. But I felt happy receiving sms from friends who care.

1. Nicole (1.52am) - Happy birthday ps goh! Time really flies hor..It's ur birthday already. Hope u like the card n the present i got u..Have fun n enjoy ur day!
2. Sharon (7.32am) - Happy birthday! Not sure if u can receive this, but u dun need to reply if u do, cos must pay. LOL. Have a gd day! *Hugs*
3. Shufen (8.07am) - Dear Shan happy birthday to u my dearest friend! May u stay healthy n happy always! :-D have a wonderful day! Enjoy yah!
4. Shuling (9.42am) - To my dearest da gong zhu cabbage ps san...wish u a very happy birthday! u come back give u hug...LOL
5. Shufang (9.42am) - Ohaiyo ps san! Tanjobi omendeto! wish u stay beautiful n happy always~cya soon! muack :-)
6. Nizza (11.32am) - Happy birthday! and many more years to come! have a blessed birthday! :-*
7. Ah Liang (10.34pm) - Er jie, i'm ah liang. Wish u happy birthday.

Abit disappointed that Shulin never sms me. Maybe she's too busy and she forgot to sms me. But I saw that she superpoke me happy birthday in facebook. So at least she remembered.

I was in the coach on my way to Yilan and was thinking whether Kun remembers my birthday. I mean he could be heartless if he forgot. I was hoping he could at least sms me happy birthday. Then at 12.32pm, he called me and wished me happy birthday. At night before midnight, he called again and we talked for 42 min. He sang me a birthday song which made me cry. I know he meant well, because he don't want me to feel all alone on my birthday. I know Shufen will probably felt angry that why Kun still do that. But I really feel better that he sang for me a birthday song. I really want him to do that for me. When he told me he wanted to do something for me probably for the last time, I almost thought he's just standing outside my hotel room. I felt touched he sang for me, but why must it be the last time...... T_T

It was supposed to be our 9th year anniversary also, but this day never exist anymore.....oh nevermind...

I still have very great friends who care for me. I bought everyone some gifts and i'm happy with the stuff i bought for them. I hope they like it :D

Just want to say "Thank you everyone!" I will get better, I just need alot of time & courage!!! Thanks for always being there for me ^_~

爭開眼睛看世界

今天看了莫位朋友的Blog, 我好想猛搖頭. 不是我嗑藥喔, 而是它的Blog的內容讓我有些感想. 她所寫的都是環繞著她的娃娃.可能上個月前, 我會覺得沒甚麼大不了的. 但是, 現在的我已經對人生有了不同的看法了. 我只能感嘆著, 天哪, 朋友, 娃娃不是一切, 為甚麼你的人生就只有娃娃嗎? 為甚麼, 你好像變成了為娃娃而活的? 有興趣是好事, 但是興趣變成了這樣盲目的追逐, 不覺得太恐怖了嗎? 每個月非得把辛苦賺來的錢花在娃娃身上, 值得嗎?

以前的我, 跟那位朋友很像, 都很盲(忙).
以前的我, 眼前只有娃娃和五月天.
以前的我, 每天放工只想立刻回家做自己的東西.

以前的我, 忘記了很重要的事情.

我忘記了, 抬頭看一看我的周圍, 看一看身邊的人.
我忘記了, 除了娃娃和五月天, 其實還有親情, 友情, 愛情.
我忘記了, 甚麼才是人生中真正重要的東西.

我要跟時間賽跑, 把以前浪費掉的時間追會來.
我要用多一點時間關心家人朋友.
當然還是會留一點時間給娃娃和五月天.
剩下的時間, 我要好好利用, 好好規劃我的人生.

我還有個放不下的人, 我就讓他待在我心中, 陪我去闖我要的人生吧!

對了, 下班後, 要去哈批哈批, 可以叫我一起去喔! :D
突然間, 我也變酒鬼了~~ 囧

17年就醬過去了.....

17年前,我們開始認識了,還是同班同學.
那一年, 他和我是朋友. 那一年, 我們只有11歲.
11歲的他, 喜歡一位可愛的女生,這每個人都知道.
11歲的我, 其實曾經有偷偷的喜歡過他一下下,這沒有人知道.

13歲的我們, 很巧的, 上了同一所中學.
但是, 我們再也沒有同班了.
偶爾在學校碰過面,但卻沒有多說幾句話.
雖然像是陌生人, 但是, 我們是朋友.

17歲的我們,上了理工學院.
是緣分嗎? 我們竟然讀同一科系, 又做回了同班同學.
我們開始變成了很要好的朋友.

19歲的我們, 變成了情人.
這是我完全沒有料到的事情.
彼此認識了8年後, 我們從朋友變成了情人.
那一年的我們, 真的過得好幸福, 好開心.

28歲的我們, 從朋友變情人再變朋友.
從單純的小孩,變成了成熟的大人.
愛情走到了鏡頭, 是否還能做朋友?
還能做朋友,或許這是最好的結果?

當我發現,他再也不愛我了, 我的心痛了.
當我發現, 他不會再回到我的身邊, 我的心無力了.
當我發現, 他心裡有了另一位女生, 我的心碎了.

朋友變情人再變朋友, 真的好難受... ...

我的心雖然痛過,無力過,碎過,但是, 我的心卻還沒死.
我還在等待.

我們是否可以, 從朋友變情人再變朋友又再變情人呢?

Quote from a friend

"If whatever happened cannot destroy you,
it will only make you stronger!"

I like this quote ;)

我痛得快死了...但到最后，我还是要勇敢的面对！

爱太痛 - 吴克群

吃不能吃 睡不能睡
没有了你 全都不对
我都学不会 把爱敷衍
用笑容来把眼泪催眠
笑不能笑 哭不敢哭
人不像人 鬼不像鬼
朋友都说这 不过失恋
但我却连呼吸都胆怯
能不能不爱了 因为爱太痛了
我痛得快死了 却无法把你忘了
能不能不爱了 爱情它太痛了
我痛得快死了 却无法把爱割舍
我不能够 不能够不爱了
我不能睡
能不能不爱了 因为爱太痛了
我痛得快死了 却无法把你忘了
能不能不爱了 爱情它太痛了
我不能够 不能够不爱了

10 things that start with "I"

1) I love to drink milk! I love the creamy taste and usually i will end it with a classic "Ahhhh".

2) I sleep in the toilet during office hours when I was real tired, and sometimes I slept for as long as 15min. And usually I woke up in a fright, because I had forgotten that I am actually inside the office toilet.

3) I hate to sit besides a wall or facing a wall while eating. It makes me lose appetite if the wall is very dirty *yucks*

4) I have never been in a fight with people before. Sometimes I really feel like giving it a try cos I think I can fight. Just anyhow kick & kick! LOL.

5) I am afraid to sleep in hotel. My imaginations really run very wild.

6) I like non-living objects with a smiling face on them. It makes them look alive and makes me happy just by looking at them.

7) I like white colour eletronic gadgets! :D

8) I am scared of dragonfly. I hate the sound they produce when they are flying!!!

9) I have high endurance! Anything happened, as long as I can endure, i will endure. I remember once in primary school, the whole class is asked to stand up for punishment. We had been standing for 1 hour and i felt like passing out. Even though, i'm already breaking out in cold sweats, i still continue to endure standing.

10) I'm hurt by the one I love deeply, but that doesn't stop me from still loving him. People might say I'm crazy or not worth it, but I'm very clear as to what I wanted for now.

請你相信我...

愛你是真的!

我要快樂!

後悔,這種感覺真的要了我的命.

後悔過後,卻沒有得到很可望的二次機會時,我是多麼的很想崩潰.
因為沒有了機會,就不能做補償.即使是知道自己能改變自己,
也能改善一切的一切,沒有了機會,就再也看不到結果了.

一手創造的幸福,一旦忘了要每天努力的耕耘,總有一天也會消失的.
有再多的愛,一旦忘了表現出來,總有一天也會感覺不存在了.
兩個人在一起,一旦沒了溝通,總有一天會開始累了.

以前不懂的東西,現在學習到了.也很明白自己沒有了第二次機會.
沒有了讓他再次愛我的那個機會,沒有了讓我再次努力付出的那個機會.

我的愛太單純了,以為只要愛一個人,就會很想跟他永遠再一起.
即使是甚麼都沒有,甚麼都不做,只要能夠在一起就已經足夠了.
以為自己做的很多了,原來愛情需要再更努力一點.
現實原來真的 是很殘酷!

在這一刻,不可能忘記他,也不可能放棄他.
我會繼續等待, 等待他有一天找到藏在心里的答案.
我希望到時候,那個答案可以再次讓我們一起合手製造幸福.
當那天的來臨,我一定會珍惜機會,比他更努力的,給他一輩子的幸福.

我很清楚,我 現在 能夠做的 就是勇敢的過著更美好的人生.
開始珍惜一切,勇敢的站起來,走出悲痛,然後往希望前進.

謝謝關心我的朋友們,我愛你們! 我會慢慢的快樂起來的! :)

我感覺快要不能呼吸了!

>_<

我發現我越來越不快樂了!

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|....跌....|
|......進..|
|....谷....|
|..低......|
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|..Orz.|

從1月24號到2月1號休假,
我要讓自己快樂起來!

p/s: 我的Orz 好像是扒在地上哭泣!

Books that I bought

The Yotsuba book really is *gua gua gua*...more of like for a 3 year old kid one. No words, just pictures of yotsuba with black & white animals. I only use 30 seconds to finish the book -_-"
The rest of the books still haven't read yet :D

Although did not enjoy 100% of Mayday Concert yesterday, but I missed them already. I really envy them of their passion & their luck to do what they like. Looking forward to their August concert :)

Have a happy new year!

2009,新的一年，祝大家快乐！:)

My favourite song, for now XD

Ponyo, Ponyo, Ponyo, Sakananoko.