2nd Day at Taipei

12th March 2009 - Thursday

I went to YangMingShan today. The weather was cool & the sun was scorching bright too. I decided to walk to a place called "Zhu Zi Hu" but ended up in some park full of students & people. In the end I walked back to the bus terminal and took a bus that brought me to the mountain top. It was serene high up. I walked alot and finally sat down on the grass. I was sitting near to a couple and overheard their conversation. Although couldn't really heard everything, but I think they were talking about Love too. Seem like almost everyone is troubled by love.

My mind was blank while I was looking at the scenery. Seriously, I don't know what else to think about already. I was probably mentally & emotionally too tired. I understand life goes on, and I have to do something to make my life more worthwhile. That's why I decided to further my studies, to give myself something to keep me occupied with. I hope I could gain something valuable from studying. I hope to be able to find a job soon too. With a job & income, there are things I want to do. Like putting on braces & learning guitar.

I cried in the hotel room again that night out of loneliness & also I thought of my relationship with Kun. When each day passes, I have to come to term as to what had already happened cannot come undone. I was actually quite anticipated about SL & SF going to meet Kun this coming sat (14th March). I don't know why, but I needed them to tell me how is Kun & that girl doing now. I know I will be sad if I know they are having a smooth time. But I know I just have to accept the truth.

I have to be strong, i'm too weak already :(

I know I have the rights to be happy too :)