給我新的心

Can I live without my heart?
Cos I don't want to feel its pain.


I dreamt of him again last night...4 nights in a row...
I even dreamt of his parents -_-"

我知道活著是美好的, 所以我醒了!

我只想永遠的睡著, 因為醒著是痛苦的.

連續3晚, 我都夢到他了.

不用担心的太多,我会一直好好过.....

我只想變成透明的顏色,在人群中哭著.....

Quote of the day

'Impossible' is the excuse from people who don't try hard.

Supernatural Powers

I used to think, how good it will be, if i have the power of invisiblity.

I could go to any shops, and take everything that i fancy,without paying a cent. (Stealing in broad daylight, heh). I could follow any celebrities around, to see what they are like outside the limelight.I could board the plane to any countries, without a plane ticket or passport. I could be so happy to become invisible. Maybe that's why I like Harry Potter so much, because he got an invisibility cloak. (No, I don't think that's the only reason I like him.)

But now, I want to choose, to be able to see through people's inner thoughts. Then i can really know what they are really feeling/thinking about. Things they don't want to talk about, things they want to hide. We can also know whether a person is true or fake. How convenient but so far fetched at the same time.

It's really exhausting, to always not get answers from questions asked...So what do we do? We could only try again & again & again with our perservance to find the answers to our questions.

And who said crying makes one feel better?? I cried until I got a headache >_> Definitely don't feel any better...but it do makes my heart feel slightly lighter :)

I cried...again.

The tears i've suppressed for a week, i let them out just now.....

I am really very exhausted......

*Sigh*

Suddenly very tired...................................................

What happen?

The 1st time I quit from my job, I couldn't help smiling and felt so free.
But this time when I quit, why is it that, I couldn't help but feel worried & scared?

爭開眼睛看世界

今天看了莫位朋友的Blog, 我好想猛搖頭. 不是我嗑藥喔, 而是它的Blog的內容讓我有些感想. 她所寫的都是環繞著她的娃娃.可能上個月前, 我會覺得沒甚麼大不了的. 但是, 現在的我已經對人生有了不同的看法了. 我只能感嘆著, 天哪, 朋友, 娃娃不是一切, 為甚麼你的人生就只有娃娃嗎? 為甚麼, 你好像變成了為娃娃而活的? 有興趣是好事, 但是興趣變成了這樣盲目的追逐, 不覺得太恐怖了嗎? 每個月非得把辛苦賺來的錢花在娃娃身上, 值得嗎?

以前的我, 跟那位朋友很像, 都很盲(忙).
以前的我, 眼前只有娃娃和五月天.
以前的我, 每天放工只想立刻回家做自己的東西.

以前的我, 忘記了很重要的事情.

我忘記了, 抬頭看一看我的周圍, 看一看身邊的人.
我忘記了, 除了娃娃和五月天, 其實還有親情, 友情, 愛情.
我忘記了, 甚麼才是人生中真正重要的東西.

我要跟時間賽跑, 把以前浪費掉的時間追會來.
我要用多一點時間關心家人朋友.
當然還是會留一點時間給娃娃和五月天.
剩下的時間, 我要好好利用, 好好規劃我的人生.

我還有個放不下的人, 我就讓他待在我心中, 陪我去闖我要的人生吧!

對了, 下班後, 要去哈批哈批, 可以叫我一起去喔! :D
突然間, 我也變酒鬼了~~ 囧

17年就醬過去了.....

17年前,我們開始認識了,還是同班同學.
那一年, 他和我是朋友. 那一年, 我們只有11歲.
11歲的他, 喜歡一位可愛的女生,這每個人都知道.
11歲的我, 其實曾經有偷偷的喜歡過他一下下,這沒有人知道.

13歲的我們, 很巧的, 上了同一所中學.
但是, 我們再也沒有同班了.
偶爾在學校碰過面,但卻沒有多說幾句話.
雖然像是陌生人, 但是, 我們是朋友.

17歲的我們,上了理工學院.
是緣分嗎? 我們竟然讀同一科系, 又做回了同班同學.
我們開始變成了很要好的朋友.

19歲的我們, 變成了情人.
這是我完全沒有料到的事情.
彼此認識了8年後, 我們從朋友變成了情人.
那一年的我們, 真的過得好幸福, 好開心.

28歲的我們, 從朋友變情人再變朋友.
從單純的小孩,變成了成熟的大人.
愛情走到了鏡頭, 是否還能做朋友?
還能做朋友,或許這是最好的結果?

當我發現,他再也不愛我了, 我的心痛了.
當我發現, 他不會再回到我的身邊, 我的心無力了.
當我發現, 他心裡有了另一位女生, 我的心碎了.

朋友變情人再變朋友, 真的好難受... ...

我的心雖然痛過,無力過,碎過,但是, 我的心卻還沒死.
我還在等待.

我們是否可以, 從朋友變情人再變朋友又再變情人呢?

Quote from a friend

"If whatever happened cannot destroy you,
it will only make you stronger!"

I like this quote ;)

我痛得快死了...但到最后，我还是要勇敢的面对！

爱太痛 - 吴克群

吃不能吃 睡不能睡
没有了你 全都不对
我都学不会 把爱敷衍
用笑容来把眼泪催眠
笑不能笑 哭不敢哭
人不像人 鬼不像鬼
朋友都说这 不过失恋
但我却连呼吸都胆怯
能不能不爱了 因为爱太痛了
我痛得快死了 却无法把你忘了
能不能不爱了 爱情它太痛了
我痛得快死了 却无法把爱割舍
我不能够 不能够不爱了
我不能睡
能不能不爱了 因为爱太痛了
我痛得快死了 却无法把你忘了
能不能不爱了 爱情它太痛了
我不能够 不能够不爱了

I really don't know!

I really don't know!I really don't know!I really don't know!
I really don't know!I really don't know!I really don't know!
I really don't know!I really don't know!I really don't know!
I really don't know!I really don't know!I really don't know!
I really don't know!I really don't know!I really don't know!
WHY.....IS.......THIS.......HAPPENING........TO.........ME???
I really don't know!I really don't know!I really don't know!
I really don't know!I really don't know!I really don't know!
I really don't know!I really don't know!I really don't know!
I really don't know!I really don't know!I really don't know!
I really don't know!I really don't know!I really don't know!



I really hate feeling helpless!