WTF!

It's a Saturday and I actually woke up at 650am! I just woke up for a pee, and then I couldn't sleep anymore. Because all of a sudden, the going-to-resign-from-my-current-company thoughts came up to my mind. And I was getting nervous, feeling butterflies in my stomach and I couldn't get back to sleep. I was really scared. I will be scared, when I put the resignation letter on my boss's table. I will be scared when my boss will ask me to go inside his office for the chat. I will be scared, because I have to look for a new job. I will be scared, because I dread interviews. I am scared that I couldn't find a better job, or that I couldn't even find a job.

Why huh, I lack courage and I lack self-confidence. I was always thinking how good to be this, how good to be that, but in reality, I really don't know how to start, how to accomplish things I want, how to get the ideal job I want.

It would be real good if resigning would be as easy as just sending an email to the boss, telling them, Hey Boss, I'm not going to work from today onwards. I quit! Like that, I no need to face the boss at all. I wouldn't be so nervous at all.

See, I'm a coward!

How ah? I really hope to accomplish something in my career leh. At least has a satisfying job! Arghhhh, everything is so hard for me now! I really wanted to temporary forget about it, and enjoy my CNY 1st. After CNY, I'm gonna be brave and take the 1st step. I think it's really time for me to leave my company. It's time to move on.

Wish me luck!